Saturday, May 30, 2009 at 7:09 AM
Indonesia (Batam) trip to Harris Resort was sweet*our first trip but never gonna be the last.
since 28th march, it has been 2months ❤
since 28th march, it has been 2months ❤
nothing but simply pure happiness(:
...and i hope it last till the end*
Sunday, May 24, 2009 at 9:18 PM
too serious, too soon.must must must not let it out of control - though already running out of hand.
in control.
time for a cold shower down that "heat"
kill me.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 at 12:28 AM
my love, my fate
you will fade away.
过去当在看电影，世界当没有你
...
when the official still lived in the dark, like a shadow of a ghost - unable to dance in the light of acknowledgement, applause and admiration.
dancing alone in the cold,
she dance, swirl and when the music of autumn leaves died away..
there she stands, smiling with those tears rolling and the blood flowing
beautiful insanity*
Thursday, May 7, 2009 at 12:25 PM
exams:boo.. can't wait for 21 May to come come come!!!
and and and...my pretty face is destroyed overnight by the sudden outbreak of those evil tiny DOTS DOTS called - pimples):
Sunday, May 3, 2009 at 4:24 PM
simply love the way u bond with my family* (:getting them involved with us, our activities - like a big family rather than 2 individuals.
making sure that everyone is happy at the end of the day.
it's very important to me ❤
...and mayb u're right, im fortunate to have u by my side(:
Saturday, May 2, 2009 at 9:44 AM
boo!how stupid of me last night to let my thoughts run wild):
breathe.. breathe.. breathe..
and now the heart has calm down,
evil thoughts being shooed far far away..
im contented with my life once again(:
Friday, May 1, 2009 at 11:44 PM
...the past should have been forgotten.
the past should not have been mentioned.
for the past is nothing but the hurdle that makes me fall again and again, the poison that end my remaining journey forward.
the past is haunting me, still.
it changed me, it breaks me - it built this "wall" around my broken heart, and hid me well.
i'd gave 100% once,
i'd tried yet again and gave 100% twice.
but love simply fail me.
and they simply crushed me.
i'd love to love u they way i do in the past,
but im scared, in fact too scared to even try giving the most fundamental - and what i did is, i simply hide - hide behind that "u-like-me-more-than-i-like-u" bullshit. and it's bullshit simply because.. love cannot be measured.
i'd love to tell u, "i love u too"
i'd love to text u, "baby, where are u? miss u to bits and pieces"
i'd love to announce that, "im in a relationship with ..."
i'd love to write u letters on those pretty letter papers..
i'd love to make u feel im serious about us too.
i'd love to let u know about my worries and unhappiness..
i'd love to make u cookies, cakes and small little things just to see ur smile..
i'd love to grow old with u, if time allow us to - and be ur girl always..
i'd love to do so many so many things..
but, im sorry - timid, broken me am just too scared to give it one more try..
the strong, happy girl that u see each day,
is in fact just a fragile, broken little girl who simply can't walk out of her darkness.
all she wants is to feel..
loved.
cared.
needed.
wanted.
respected.
appreciated.
that u're proud to have her as ur beloved,
and not see her as a fool/burden that disgrace u.
im just too scared.. too scared..
too scared to give.
too scared to love.
too scared to start anew.
too scared to end things when the time is here.
im just too worried/scared..
hate to start anew.
hate to end things.
hate to feel abondoned and unwanted.
hate to be alone - loneliness makes me further depressed.
hate to be played.
so much on my mind,
so little words to express oneself.
yearning to feel "pain"
but it's not a right thing to be doing - now.
looking at the scars, a reminder of stupidity and foolishness.
an act of the past, should be left hehind in the past.