刚刚眼泪差一点点就不受控了。。还好没事(:
sometimes, i guess it's only when one can start talking freely about the past - without any fear, anger, sadness - in short, without any emotions and only smile and laugh at the silly moments - that's when one had finally let go and move on with life.

frankly, i still haven't able to achieve that.
though, im trying every day - bit by bit.. and if it failed for that day, i'll just let my emotions take over and just cry; when the tears stop flowing, i'll just try even harder tmr.

每一天，我会尽量学习放手。。
今天不行，明天再努力！

im just a stupid girl.
stupid enough to try making a sour breakup looks "mutual" to others
so that he won't feel so bad, and people around me won't dislike him as much.

letting people screw my life - studies and work, and yet... ha...

笑我笨
笑我懒好人
笑我心太软
笑我把爱情看得太重要

笑吧，笑吧，笑吧。。

im still too young to understand and deal with love.
i'll just step out of this 爱情圈圈 till the time has come - mayb a year, mayb 2.. mayb 3.. actually mayb forever..

humans are too unpredictable.
promises are too disappointing.
hugs are too fake.
kisses are too lusty.
and..

love is too scary.

love is nothing but a lie.