失控了，对不起。

in control, i must - 可是emo 了一场后，心情好象有些需的好转..

听着那些忧伤与悲哀的歌，泪流满面 - and i took the courage to actually start listening to those cantonese songs i used to love - still remember when things just got bad... i refused to speak/listen/watch anything regarding in cantonese or related to hk and im so sure i'll never step onto that piece of land anymore - with the only fact that im scared (and initially hated everything related to him so much - country included) i'll lose it once i start reliving, recalling, remembering those memories..

it's time.

my love, my fate - you will fade away.
过去当一场电影，世界当没有你。

so hard on me, yet there's no other choice.

mayb GOD can help walk me through this pit-bottom journey of my life.
bringing some light into the darkness, turning my pitch black world into greyness.. and than slowly decolorised - and when the time is right, i'll help myself with adding colours - and this time i'll be extremely careful with the colors im gonna add, keeping to pastel colors for a safe, stable and simple life - protecting the already incompleted, inconsolable fragile heart of a broken girl.

my blog's becoming the undeniable - 失落部落阁

this is so bad - yet, this is just me; the real me - 真实的我，而不是戴上面具后的“她”

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depressed issues aside - im just glad to have met and gotten updates of my small friend and a old friend just now.

also experienced my first 求签 at 四马路的观音庙; so true yet so don't wanna face it.. but i know, i must - there's no running away..

love is nothing but a lie.