10 more mins to the 14th of the month.
14th supposed to be special - 3years 4months supposedly - yet now, it's 14th the death soul. 14th when love turns hate, and hatred only i feel for the rest of my life - because im me, just too good remembering the pain, lies and betrayal people brought me - i might not remember the good, but i sure remember the bad - bet on that, and my advice? "try me"

i don't know what's wrong with me the whole of today.
frustration and anger is all i felt - impatience too.
oh no. mayb it's just pure hatred that's raging inside me.
it seems the whole world is totally fucked up - by people, situations, things, events etc.
in fact, my hate for life seems to be growing, raging like an unstoppable fire - that will never be comforted, never be dim - let alone put out.

there's this uncomfy feeling in the heart - nudging me, reminding me - of things i refuse to remember, things im running away from, and most probably will - be running away forever. if i have to run forever, i will.

on the verge of crying so many times today, yet i didn't drop a single tear.
emotions have to be hidden - especially when it's weakness that's trying to show.

rage. anger. frustration. hate - i'll happily display.

this is not going to be a happy sweet life.
but a life filled with raging hatred and death - negativism.
most probably im gonna be feed on the hate that's within me to survive this life.
so...

fuck the world.

love is nothing but a lie.